This is frustrating because I never know what to say when the subject comes up. This is frustrating because I hate laying my deeply ingrained personal issues onto someone else, as inevitable as that may be. I did not want to write this, much less on a public forum, but there is something that needs to be said and a responsibility to do so. Especially after all this time. Especially now that when we should have been forgotten you are still letting loose your tongue.
I suppose I should have said upfront how juvenile I thought the whole thing was. I should have told you that I thought you were a closet prude and not because you were afraid of intimacy but because you have the emotional availability of a mentally handicapped rabbit. There is a reason some people are never in relationships. I should know, I spent too much time with one. They never say no. Never commit. Never give a reason. They just drag people through the motions until one of the parties gives up and walks away. I can only assume that no one had ever walked away from you before and that is why you felt the need to tell everyone how madly in love with you I was. That must be why you are telling people you broke my heart and that's why I just stopped talking to you.
So after all this time of ignoring your game I stand in a place where the echoes of your words are directly effecting my life. And while I do not wish to hurt you any more than I assume I have, I can not stand here and take the lashings any further.
The truth of the matter is we never dated. We were talking. We shared a Coke once. We went to the park a few times. We hung out here and there and we once almost kissed. I told you what I wanted and you told me what you did not want so I kept it affable. When you edged closer to me I edged further away out of respect for myself and the emotions I did not wish to get involved. I grew tired of your insistence that you wanted nothing of a relationship while your actions spoke otherwise and so I walked away. I was not rude about it. I never spoke negatively of your character. I gave no false impressions when your friends inquired as to what happened.
Yes, there was a time when I humored the idea of a relationship with you. Even if for only a short time. But we did not take that path and it took less than an hour for me to move on. I would ask that you please do the same.
- Muden
